F R U S T R A T I O N

I cannot do it all. I must face these facts. I cannot MAKE people work hard and succeed...I cannot be completely responsible for everyone else's failures. I am so frustrated...I sit here staring at the walls with my shoulders tense, muscles in my face twitching, raging headache, and my jaw clenched. I hate the month of April...love the weather, hate the work. I hate the fact that everyone else is responsible for making me look either good or incompetent. I work my butt off to make sure things go smoothly, but when I get no help on the other end, it just makes me look like a failure. I really don't think anyone understands the amount of work I have to do...they look at the finished product and think 'how cool' or 'aren't they having fun?'...ugh. Sometimes I wish I just assembled nuts and bolts in a faceless factory. But then again, that's not me. THIS is me - stress and all!

Is it June yet?