It pays to be organized

Some areas of my life are extremely organized and run very smoothly...other areas I tend to fly by the seat of my pants. Is it no wonder those areas cause me the most stress?

We had a joint 6th grade concert today with the public school. I was extremely organized - had the drinks and cookies lined up, more ice and coolers than I needed, just the right amount of parent help, the gym got set up an hour in advance, sound system was turned on, music was in order, and signs were put up. Everything ran like clockwork. Why can't I stay that organized in all areas of my job?

I tend to be very organized in my horse life. Maybe that's because when it comes to the horses, I am 100% on my own there...no help from anyone. This is strictly MY world, with others only popping in for a visit every now and then. If I don't stay on top of things and completely organized, disaster happens. I guess I am only able to channel my organizational skills into one area at a time. Sometimes, although I have the best of intentions, things just go haywire when it comes to band activities. Could be the fact that I have to run an entire band program grades 5-12 plus all the little extra musical school happenings all by myself? Somehow my home life goes haywire also...I try to stay organized, but half the time I am just flying through from one place to another, and things get a bit out of sorts. Can we say tension in the home? Oh well...the school year is about to end so I can devote more time to things around here. I can only do what I can do, and until I find a way to invent more hours in the day, I am only going to get just so much done.

Sometimes I find being at home is the most stressful part of my day. It's weird how that has come about. Sometimes I find my jaw clenching as I drive up in the driveway. I feel like a rabbit waiting to be attacked by the wolf. Sometimes my defenses kick in long before there is any reason to. I need to work on that. I think I need some days out with friends...people outside of this home and life...I need to round out my world a little better. Right now my life is a triangle - we have work, home, and horses. Maybe I need to make it a square, find another dimension...just a tiny one...to help me broaden my horizons, see different viewpoints, and just get away. Or maybe I just need to chill out and not take things so personal, remove myself mentally from these attacking situations and just ignore them. HAH! Easier said than done. Maybe I just need a little sunshine...it's so cloudy and gloomy today :-[