Living incognito

I have been working hard on becoming a different person. I don't particularly care for this person, but I think it is necessary to save what little good is left in my relationships. I think sometimes my personality is a bit too strong or forceful for some people...especially other forceful and strong personalities. Two strong people can clash and make huge problems. Back in the good old days the personalities would clash and produce fireworks of the good kind. Now they just clash and create fires of destruction. Since I only really have control over myself and no one else, changing myself seems to be the only solution. I feel like I am wearing a mask, like I am bland and white and absolutely uninteresting. I hate it. But I am willing to do whatever is necessary in order to save this relationship.

I find myself alone more and more...of course even I don't want to spend time with this person I have made myself into. But at least things aren't breaking and falling apart.