Who ARE you?

I feel sometimes like a person divided. Divided into a thousand different slices that have nothing in common and are not joined in any way, shape, or form. I feel sometimes I need to SCREAM in order to be heard. I feel sometimes like I am screaming into an empty echo chamber, and the only person answering is my own screams.I feel pulled in a hundred different directions. I wish I had more money. I have more money than I thought I would, but of course it's never enough. I am so taken over by laziness tonight, and I panic as I sit here thinking of all I need to do but cannot get motivated to do it. It's like I am in a suspended state - I know what needs to be done, but the muscles won't work, I cannot move.