Scrooge

Why am I not in the Christmas spirit this year? I really have no desire to decorate or even listen to Christmas music. I am not looking forward to shopping, or to the fun Christmas family activities. I guess I feel kind of alienated and disconnected this year, which makes for very little Christmas spirit.

I've done quite a bit of Christmas shopping already. I've bought pretty much all of Kevin's gifts by now, and it was fun picking out a lot of different things that will be uniquely his. But now I am just kind of ...'blah'...not very excited. I know Kevin dreads shopping for me (hence the shoppingless Christmas he did last year), so maybe I just feel like it has become more of a business arrangement than fun gift-exchanging. He comes from the $20-check-gift-family background, so it is to be expected. I just hope he has fun shopping, and if it becomes a chore to him, we should all just skip it. Heaven knows we already have enough chores in our daily lives!

Or maybe I should just shaddup and leave it alone. I am in a very down mood today. I am sick (probably the flu...ugh), plus very depressed over conversations last night. I am feeling very low, so the solution will be to go spend quality horse time this afternoon and then come home and make some of Mom's soup for supper. Oh yes, and then paint paint paint paint paint paint. This is my 'second job'...tonight will be a late night as I try to finish more Christmas orders.